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I have tried to post things other than the emotional struggle of dealing with this. I try to keep a hopeful attitude and think I will get better, but today I feel like sharing some reality of my situation.
It’s been 15 months and I still don’t have proper use of my arm. For Thanksgiving prep, I peeled 8 small potatoes and later held up a bowl up to see if the bottom of it said it was microwavable. That caused me 6 days of pain in front and behind my shoulder. Today I had an appointment with my Physical Therapist we put my injured arm in front of me positioned at perhaps a 30 degree angle and bent at the elbow so my hand was in front of me. We put my other hand on top of the injured shoulder hand and I had to try to rotate out toward the ceiling. I could not lift it. I tried. I looked at it. I flexed every muscle and tried, imagined, thought in my head, go, go, go, but it did not move.
My P.T. says that it’s clear the muscle is not firing. “There’s no go in that muscle.” We have done so many exercises. My other muscles have gotten stronger but the supraspinatus is still not responding.
He told me an EMG would see if the muscles are firing, if they are receiving an electrical charge from the nerve or not. It would help define if I have nerve damage or tears in my muscle. I had a MRI, they saw inflammation but no tears. But perhaps it wasn’t clear. The radiologist said it was hard to see my muscles since I am small. He had to do some shots twice. Perhaps the angle or inflammation covered any tears. I learned an arthrogram would see if I have tears. I hate hearing about all the cuts and surgeries and with undetermined success. I will do what takes to get better. I wish I would just heal, wish my muscle would wake up and work. I have done so many exercises at home and the gym, my other muscles got stronger but my supraspinatus still does not work.
I wish my doctors would have been more involved in finding why I wasn’t healing. I kept getting passed from resident doctor to resident doctor. They would say, ”Yes, this is a long time. You should be better by now. Come back in a couple of weeks or months.” No one took initiative to explore why I wasn’t better. Why it’s not healed, yes, this is a long time to be injured, help me.
I don’t know what will happen. I know I am very tired and frustrated with this duration.
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